she’s a morning bender
well, apparently my blogging really takes off when im bored and living at home with my parents.
i barely have time to collect my thoughts these days, let alone put them into words and on to this site. so. oh well.
i’m currently sitting at atomic coffee, my old place of college employment, drinking a mug of excellent coffee and listening to the shins. i got into minnesota last night and was greeted by cassandra, my old college roommate, and her darling baby harry. i still cant get over that she’s married and has a baby. my, how things channnngee….
then i headed over to my dear dear dear friend dani’s house, where i was greeted by beer pong and promises of a twins game and hold steady concert on friday. i cant…wait.
its nice to be on “vacation”. i’ve been working so much lately. i did an 8 day stretch right before i flew down here. 132 hours in 8 days. 2 complete days of overtime. oh boy. it was long. i feel pretty irresponsible coming here, but thats never stopped me before. life is short, after all.
i love coming back to moorhead. but this time i am met with different feelings. sure, i’m super super happy to see my great friends. but they are either starting families or getting fantastic jobs that make me feel like i’m not doing enough with my life. and i know its super silly to think this way. i’m incredibly happy with my life and love the choices i’ve made. but i can’t help but take a second look at my plans for the future, which are pretty non-existant. i’m constantly asking myself “what am i doing with my life?” but it only seems to happen when i’m…here. in alaska, i’m surrounded by people who fly by the seat of their pants, who avoid commitment, who travel the world on a whim, and long term plans consist of whats for dinner that night. and its okay. its perfectly acceptable. and it’s rubbed off on me. and i’m happy. really happy.
so, its okay. i just need to keep telling myself that.
it’s hot here. and sunny. skirts and tank tops are key. and i’m loving it.
i got to see my sister for a short while yesterday and it was so great to see her. i forgot how much i missed her and how fun she is. she’s leaving for boston soon, so i wont get to see her for another week or so. oh well. at least i have dani here.
sister love
besties 4 evah
mister harry
