a slight figure of speech
i finally finished my hat:
some things in life mean nothing. they’re just distractions, ways to keep busy. you can make big deals out of them if you want: assign meaning or attach emotion. but often it’s not what you think at all. quite often, there is no point, perhaps like the game, heads-up 7-up. some times its hard to distinguish between the real things and the ones with expiration dates. but others, are so obvious that its almost a relief. they are fun ways to pass the time. but at night it leaves you dreaming and yearning for the things that stick.
new coined term: expiration dating.
im back in alaska after a trip that felt more like 2 months, not 2 weeks. i’ve been back for almost a week and i’ve fallen back into the swing of my life here in anchorage. i had one day of rest before quickly getting back to work for a four day in a row stretch on the train. it was good to work, mainly to get some money. and keep me busy. the mind wanders when its given too much free time. it was a good trip. an odd trip. i don’t know what to make of some of the things that happened, but it was all positive and exciting. i’m beginning to construct a plan in my mind of what my future will look like, primarily my immediate future. which is scary and exciting all wrapped up in a box with craigslist searches and possible employment.
i got approved for one of my cruises that i applied for through princess, the company i work for. like most trips, i don’t even feel that its real or going to happen. but on october 6th, right before my birthday, i will be boarding a huge ship in san francisco and heading through the panama canal to florida for two weeks. i will be accompanied by my fabulous friends from the train: haley, jan and tania. i’m just excited to sit by a pool and drink strawberry daiquiris somewhere in central america. it will be a nice treat after the train season ends. but i’m nervous because now is the point in the summer that i really need to save some money and prepare for things. i need money for the cruise, my plans after the train and, of course, bills. so basically, all work and no play. which is actually okay with me.
